OUTLINEING

 THE BEGINING

Ok so the scene starts with Ruhi shes up before dawn and begins to make food. Its dark out she begins heating food looking out almost life a life size doll that's just awaken to a horrible existence. 

She then proceeds to wake everyone else. Parents & sister. She enjoys the silence before everyones up. She goes bk to her room to eat. At her mothers insistence she does the dishes and cleans cuz she's to be up by 7 am but during this  holy time of Ramadan maybe 8am.  The food is good she is tired the only problem is....she cant sleep.! She wakes at night. Her sleeping pattern is a mess.  She she'll try.


It's 5 am she's just finished praying. err its morning she feels like death but the only hint of her deep inner misery is the very dark circles around her eyes.    She has to help her mom soon in the kitchen they've a lot of orders to complete.  She does best at night that's how she usually does it. Well not since the start of Ramadan. Things have been a bit different since the start of this holy occasion. She basically tries to do the orders as fresh as possible.  At her mothers insistence and off of her own will as well.   She takes pride in her work & what she does.   No matter how small their business is she loves it.!    Due to her diligent & hard work is the main reason the business even exists.  It's not her first passion but she does it with ut most pride.


She  basically runs the house. She didn't forsee her life this way at the age of 28 infact she'd pictured it the complete opposite. They say the youngest is always the most spoilt but she shattered that sterotype. See she's the youngest. The way it was all explained was.  Being the youngest she could afford to stop/quit school she cud always go bk whereas her sister was older could finish and once that was over she'd have her chance to go and finish. She had time lots of it.  She could always finish go bk and  When Manal finished school it would be a great achievement and help to everyone. Leaving Ruhi as the youngest and she'd be able finish school after or atleast that was the plan.


Time passed by and things changed Amal was done with school but she never did finish or go bk to school. Her sister went on to study further and she remained hope as her parents personal helper.   They were strict. very strict more strict than they were with Amal.  Though they wud never admit it. They had tight reigns on her very tight. They were controlling. Suffocating extremely she had no freedom none. They dictated everything she did. Dressed, speaked woke. slept. There was always something to be done it seemed her time would never come by that age. A world had passed her by. The thought of just beginning just going bk to school. It was to much daunting and it made her bitter.


She wanted to badly its all she'd wanted for years but.. she didn't. No she couldn't. 
Ramadan a time of spiritual reflection. This was a time she never could get right. Praying 5 times a day seemed like a lot. Can't u dedicate 1 hr total out of 24.? The qstn begged in her mind. It was a lot took a lot at least for her. On meds and work it all sounded like excuses but it was true.  She was always tired lethargic sleep deprived.  Her sister always out did her in keeping all fasts prayers her parents esp were strict they did also.  


She felt bad she didn't do everthing perfectly or wt was mandatory but she knew she did her best as is wt evr she did was a lot for her.  It was a lot.  It felt near impossible. As fate wud hv it as she always did when she was finished praying & after the breaking of the fast. She'd go on fb browse same thing. Soo boring she was very shy extremely.  She joined groups which was new to her. She'd been on fb for years for never really notice any such groups before till now ofc. She'd noticed this guy he was mostly quiet. He didn't seem to hv much of a voice like..at all.  Infact he seemed kind of retarded.  Stuck up she'd seen his pics and he was Handsome ok that's putting it lightly he was dark & deadly he had this look to him that just drew u in.  Drew her in but she wouldtnt send him a friend request noo he she knew his type stuck up full of himself. Looks like he thinks I don't send friend requests I just get em. lol She' often like his comments not cuz she liked him but bcuz she wanted to encourage him to speak out voice up.  She was a sweetheart a delicate one but when she was angry ouhh she was outspoken very much so. Still sweet in all her rage.  Anyways time passed and by tht time of Ramadan they were already friends.   He mssged her one day.


Hey I stole ur video to share in a our group hope u don't mind.
Ruq- No not at all I don't mind.


Wow surprising she tght.!  He's talking to me.  There was a time in a group he made a comment that surprised her. Pleasantly but also gave her anxiety. Who wants to fuck you was the qstn.! I don't know she commented. One guy commented she loved his comment with a heart react.
Then to her surprise ....I'd FUCK YOU.  She was surprised to say the least. She bursted out into laughter. It was shocking she squealed in surprise.  These foolishness kept her lively going these silly moments made her alive in her dreary dead life.!


She didn't thnk much of it at first. She was surprised.  Then one day he mssged her. They spoke she didn't know wt to say at first so she lied wt else could she do.? What do u do.? Where u from.?  Where did u study.?  What'd u get ur degree in.? Wow a barrage of qstns she didn't know wt to say.
She managed to answer them all in a rush she did ok she tght good. She answered quickly so as not to let him have any doubts.  Little did she know he'd suspected from the very beginning she wasn't the girl in the 2 pics she had up.   She was ok was she tht pretty.?  Heres a few things that didn't add up.
The name the ethnicity ughh fk y did she lie.? Y didn't she say something smplier like paki or desi.? The girl was a Iranian so she tght well she looked Iranian the smart thing to do is say that when anyone asks. Wt she didn't know was Khan was a Pakistani name fk how could she be so bloody stupid.??? How she tght it was all Islamic she didn't know some names denoted race & place of origin.Who knew there was so much in a name.!




The group was good it was ok.  It was pretty funny actually.  The next say she tried to log in but couldn't she got a 30day ban which lasted for 60 so she opened a new account so she could talk to him, She talked to him on her real profile but he wouldn't answser  her there she didn't hv up any pics and he didn't want to reply she supposed it was reasonable. Anyways she opened her new profile and asked his friend about him. Right she tght it was her fault that he left fb she just couldn't shake the feeling so she asked abt him on her new file. He left FB we don't know y his friend said.
Ohh I just noticed he was missing. Hope hes ok she said in a casual manner,


Oh no it was me for sure.  I wondered if its cuz I asked him for those stupid sexy pics which he labelled as nudes ughh like I'd want to see his ...dk I asked for maybe him in his boxers fully erect wuf be soo hot.  I wud hv never asked if he didn't curse me he outright said fuck you I never seen him say that to anyone how dare he. So yea I was gonna play around with him. She told him the only way he cud make it up was to send a pic of him in his boxers well despite acting like he doesn't give a shit..he surely gave a shit he refused. The next day she awoke she was surprised that he wasn't on fb.  Plus she'd been bored on her real profile it was empty no one knew her and she has no one to tlk to.


So the next day she opened one under her real well supposed real fb name.  The one people actually knew her on.   After tlking to his friend then him she was banned on that file also for 2 weeks but she talked to him she had the chance to before getting the 2 week ban.  


Then they joked around in groups well she did. People told her she was to friendly. A  second time he went missing and she was fish out of water she missed him. When was he coming back.? One night during Ramadan he asked for her no to add her on WhatsApp and she refused brushing him off by telling him u make me have bad thoughts.  Nothing could be further from the truth. She simply liked him something about him ....made her feel alive. Was it his looks she pondered for a long time as he many a times asked her. I wonder if  I had up no photos if I'd get the same response.? Would pple still be interested in me.?  Wud pple still want to tlk to me.?  Y did he ask me that.? Was he directing it at me saying I'm only into him for his looks.? God she felt a sink in her chest. She just wanted to know about him.  Just a little bit. She'd been so lost and dead in her own dreary life he just seemed so approachable so free soo bold.  And tho he said so little whatever he did say had effect.


Things he'd say  -- Often whenever he picked an argument.  The fuck u want with me.?
* Why do u talk to me.?  * Fuck out here she hated it when hed say that she instantly wanted to call him a cunt.  But it hurt her more when she did ohh the irony.  *You love me gurl.?  *I love u Ruq u don't have to love me back.   Yet he'd coax her to say it back something anything.  I <3 u she'd say.  Sometimes he'd ask her how do u mean it.?   She said it to him one night when she was trying to pacify him he was angry that she wouldn't send him a voice mssg so she tried  to pet him. She'd just leave his ass there but he was a moody mf. I could feel a block coming on she couldn't handle being cut off from him again so she...left him with I love u jewby.  And then u still mad.?  He never replied till the next day. Good Morning beautiful day.  As if nothing had ever happened.  But managed to ask the day after ofc after she'd mssged him did u meant it.?  


Ruq - mean what.?   Z- when u said you'd love me did u mean it.?  Ruq- Yes sure. Zaid- Why'd u say it how did u mean it.?  Ruq- You say it also.  Zaid- is that fear I hear.?  Ruq- replied -- just as u mean it.   Zaid- and how is that.?  Ruq - burst out into laughter ..as friends platonically. Maybe even less than that.!   Zaid- smart ass explain. Ruq- tght y was this important anyway.? He obvi didn't like her.


Why'd he keep asking.? wt was he getting at.?  After they stopped talking about 2 weeks later after much tght she realized that he knew how could he not it was obvious to obvious she felt bad terrible sick a sort of I upsetness in her stomach. After all she had a million nick names for him how many did I hv she tght. Ughh she didn't want to think it was unbearable she cringed as she fell to the side and grunted her embarrassment into her pillow. Zaidy bear, jade, jewby, tedddy bear,  let's be honest she have to be stupid to tell him who she was although she wanted to desperately in her state of confusion/semi desperation keep him as a friend she almost told him everything everything had suspected.  well that wouldn't be correct.  since he suspected many things.


 he suspected she was a man, Jewish, Negro, Hindu, an old lady, is beyond annoying see they didn't do it in a funny way no. they did it in a malicious way  in an  annoying way.    it was beyond stupid it seemed that every time they talked he was hell-bent on creating arguments. see at first he'd own up to them but then after two months or so that changed.  he'd start shit do things purposely  get under her skin.  after a while she began to realize he was doing this on purpose.  because during some arguments he'd say then don't talk to me which is exactly what  he wanted.  every time they spoke.  he'd  always say something that will let on we was really thinking..   * why do you talk to me.  gawd she'd   heard that millions of times.  how could she have been so dumb. *do you get paid to talk on Facebook.  do you have any friends.?    do you ever go out.?   it was all fucked up questions she knew he never asked his close friends whom he considered as his own kin/girls he wanted to fuck.!!!!!


 four  months and five days down the line. one Sunday evening as she sat on her bed.. it all dawned on her.  she sighed deeply as she raked fingers through her hair.  how could she so stupid.  Sensitivity lets talk on the topic of tht. I remember telling his friend as I once told him. You say so little but it means soo much. You say so little but it holds/has so much weight to it.    Dani replied - no ur just sensitive. As is me being sensitive is a bad thing. I knew I was but I also knew what he was implying. Ruq- No I'm not sensitive that doesn't mean idk what I'm saying.  Besides I'm only sensitive to people I consider.   Dani- lol go on...say.  Ruq- say what.? I already wt I had to lol its a complete sentence.


Zaid-   QUIRKS- I once asked him to send me a vice mssg in Arabic. I cant remember what he said the first time. But I know it sounded good.  The ladies must kick off their panties/ drop their panty to the floor when u talk like that I said the second time. Z- he replied not exactly. The first time i'd heard his voice I said ....I think I almost licked the screen lol.  His reply was...hahaha.   


I'd ask him to say something mean. I thought he'd call me a hoe or whore but I got more than I bargained for. The fucker had the gall to say bad stuff about my mom and this wasn't the first time. I gathered up the courage and said ur mom is like a public toilet. I cringed and brewed with turmoil on the inside as I awaited his reply/.  God knows i take this shit to seriously. He was angry ok u hv a good one his way of cutting me off when he didn't want to talk. I didn't mean it i used bk his line on him I'm not saying it abt her i was just saying it. Like u did u didn't mean anything. So i coaxed him and we argued a bit more. Damn that's all we ever did. Y did i hold onto him the way tht i did is it like he said. His world was big and always will be and mine was small and always will be.?
I mean i never fought with him after a while whenever he said it i just agreed i knew he was being nasty but i felt he was also right. I felt that way and amazingly enough i agreed maybe he was right just maybe.


ZAIDY BEAR - FROM RUQ KINDLY .......SORRY SEE  THIS THING IS. YOU'RE NO GOOD.  THERE'S GOOD IN EVERYONE. AND AS MUCH AS YOU'RE NO GOOD.  ALL i EVER SAW AND YOU WAS GOODNESS.  KINDNESS.  BEAUTY.  THERE WAS SOMETHING THAT i FOUND IN YOU.  YOU WERE NEW.  YOU WERE NURTURING. WHENEVER i HAD ANY DOUBT.  SOMETIMES YOU WOULD SEND ME A PHOTO OF WHERE ARE YOU WERE AND WHAT YOU WERE DOING.  i THOUGHT YOU WERE BEING SWEET KIND CARING MAYBE YOU WERE'NT  A COMPLETE ASS HOLE. lITTLE DID i KNOW IT WAS ALL AN ATTEMPT TO EARN MY TRUST SO YOU CAN FIGURE OUT IF YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT ME NOT BEINGTHE GIRL IN  THE PHOTOS.


ONE THING LEADS TO ANOTHER WEEKS PASS. AND HER THOUGHTS CONSTANTLY BREWING ON HIS DEMANDS AND HOW SHE CAN MEET THEM. SHE COULDN'T BELIEVE SHE WOULD ACTUALLY CONSIDER THIS. SHE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING UPFRONT. SHE JUST DID IT. SHE TURNED ON THE CAMERA AND SAW HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME AND IT WAS AMAZING. HE LOOKED EVERY BIT OF HANDSOMEAS HE DID IN HIS PHOTOS. 




Something amazing happens. one day she agrees to video chat but she doesn't warn him that shes not the girl in the pic. I mean after all he said it doesn't matter right.! He said it numerous times. Soo if he meant it then it shudnt be a problem though....it wud be. She'd spent nights upon nights wondering if he'd still accept her as a friend wondering if he'd not hate her accept her and tho she didn't do anything wrong to hurt him....forgive her.!   She explained it all to him but from the things he said she knew if she came clean he'd cut all ties with her ..time had passed and she hoped that things were different as he claimed just maybe it wud be ok.     She was nerveous and scared heart beats skipping anticipating for him to turn on his camera he insisted she did first ...a sign he didn't trust her.???


She turned it on and to her surprise he was elated even complimented her on how pretty she was it was as if her wish had come true. When she'd wished that she looked like tht girl. They talked a lot tht night she was confused if he was serious or joking but she could tell he seemed genuine about what he was saying.  She just kinda went along with it.  This was strange he believed that she was tht girl amazing.       The next day he mssged her and to her amazement ...he wanted to meet. She told him she didn't think tht was a good idea. soo she tried to ignore him for as long as possible but ...he kept at it everytime they spoke a whole 7 weeks later he begged to meet her just once.!


Unwillingly she agreed and they did but to her surprise as if he'd never seen her ...he asked who r u.? Bluntly coldly she realized he never actually saw her so who had he seen that night.?  This was weird she made an excuse of the top of her head.  he found it strange tht she had her friends phone. when he sent a mssg and it rang. she turned it off she checked it first then said ......it just my mom. then turned it off. I almost tght u had her phone he said ....CATFISH. Plz don't call me that I hate it. Z- and whys tht.   ....R- cuz its annoying.  he didn't know it was ruqs phone but he suspected after the mssg he called and then she hung up. immediately she was scared she managed to ditch him. ok so at this point as we all know he realizes shes not the girl. He asks her did u get her to tlk to me.? who r u and who was tht girl.?   Ok so it all falls apart shes shattered into a million pieces. 


So back into the future and he comes to see her. They spend a night together and she worries when she awakes that hes left for good.   But he hasn't.   He comes back with food the next day when she was suppose to see him he never showed up she notices her story is missing and a video clip from an unknown source has been sent to her from an unknown no.  she hates herself and wonders if they she made a huge mistake she was scared.  No one could tell it was her it was to dark unless they knew her maybe then.    Shattered she couldn't take the betrayal and ends up moving back home. 


She's distraught and broken. In an attempt to keep her in line her father finds a match for her after her sisters wedding. Claiming its the least he could do for her.   She's not happy but he's something/someone to pass the time with.   To take the sting out of her pain.  If that was ever or will ever be possible, She wondered now if wt she tght was a blessing was actually a curse.  But it doesn't workout she gets burned again when she catches him flirting and text mssgs on his phone she knows hes a cheater.!      It hurt this time to cuz she never liked him yet she forced herself to love him be good to him.  How could she have wasted all this time this wasn't her. She'd become someone she never wanted to be.   Soo she left him for good.   Moved on this time not to anyone but to something.
She worked hard on her writing and became a professional photographer. It was her first passion before she even knew she'd ever loved writing.  


Then she gets a promotion. No she applies for a job and gets thru to go France they city of love. She sees Paris and she'd be damned for ...she finds a familiar face there...him.   He also works as a writer now.  He's her partner and she's in shock she feels uneasy and a little sick.!  Its been so long quite sometime but as soon as she saw him she remembered her story familiar feelings came flowing back they were bittersweet mostly bitter now...rancid.   A reminder of a possibility one that had died she never did finish her story.    They get to working she avoids any eye contact with him as much as possible, But she can't foeget that he took something of hers that could have been a huge success.  She never could replicate what she had done and she never forgot this act of his.  She tght he had been a blessing to her but he turned out to be a curse in disguise.     Eventually he asks her out on a she refuses.   He doesn't give up and he's not in the habit of chasing but he does this one time probably first and last.   He goes after her and she avoids him as best as she cud kindly respectfully.  He doesn't give up she cant avoid him always tho. For work theres a lunch she has to attend and hes there.  Eventually he gets to her he talks in general asks her to tlk to him wts been up with her and so forth.    She tells him the same thing she always does ....nothing much he gets annoyed.  Just like always. He says.  Well its like u said ur world is big and always will be and mine is small and always will be.   Right he smiles and shakes his head.  Have a good one.   He says.  Oh is that wt u want for me to have a good time is that why u stold my story.?    It just came out.  You made that video of me and expect me to me all happy to see you.???   


I bet you'd never to that to ur slutty friends.   Z- careful watch it don't tlk abt them tht way.  You just said u cared for me yet at the sound of a bad word against them in a moment of anger and pain u cant tolerate it,!    I wonder do u trick them and make videos of them too.???   I never showed anyone.  She felt the rage brewing and bubbling within her.    Ofc not she said softly mean while her emotions exploded within. Tears flowed from her eyes.     She hated him that's all she could feel.


She could never forgive him. Then on that cold night with flurries falling from the sky he told her he kept her writing.  It kept him going all those lonely nights to know someone who didn't really know him or barely knew him...cud feel that way about him.    That's nice she said nice that u eventually felt something that was mine personal and special.  Eventually she suspected she knew what this was.   She took the bad things she'd written and burned them. Ending the bad luck of all those she'd wished bad luck on. After he'd left she wished bad luck on them all and she knew for what he said that somehow a lot of it had taken effect altho she was in disbelief she did it she broke her own spells with a though a spoken word and the  burning of the paper she'd written bad things on.    He inquires why she didn't become a writer it what she wanted to be and she wasn't.   It was to painful for me eventually she told him tho she bet it didn't make a difference to him.     It never did ever. She was hurt beyond belief that year at winter time he shows up to her door.  They get to talking and he gives he poems and things he wrote for her about her.


Surprised she takes it shes a little surprised. This is a what I'm sorry for causing u wrongful pain and shame.? u sent tht video tlking about how I was a slut and how I ....i'd open my legs for just anybody.   He stared her str8 in the eye saying nothing.       I know I was wrong believe me I do & I'm sorry I swear to you.    Eventually they get together and make love and write together he helps her and they do it together and get married. and have a beautiful baby girl names....idk something pretty


Ohh before the wedding comes the funny part meeting the parents and the jewish comedy bits. Where she discovers hes a lot more jewish than hes let on Yeheudi is a lot more Yeheudi than he's let on.!
That comes to her as another betrayal.   But the truth is she loves him so much that she overlooks all that and rises above it.  


I forgot to mention that after he tricks her and leaves her comes the seven or 8 punishments.    They're all very dark deep and take effect. 


So ofc eventually he comes back to her she hates hi,. She no longer wants him he acknowledges what a massive coke head cunt he is. So he works hard to impress her. House car, job writer she doesn't like that one to much but she was happy for him.


she knows what it is, She knows that this feeling he has is nothing more than the effects of a spell. One shes going to undo. And she does again and again,   Then she realizes that its not a spell its him hes changed and he really means it. She was shocked she was in shock this was soo surreal she didn't know what to think.













I hate you I hate You am I supposed to b grateful to you. For stealing my work for stealing something private something apart of me that could hv been something great. Shu I b happ tht u found strength off of something u stole and intended to use for evil am I suppose to be happy for that grateful to u for not doing something u weren't supposed to do in the first place.


He eventually gives her a  complete book that he wrote for her giving her the option to publish it.
She reads it but doesn't its not hers and she cant accept it although she keeps it both hers and his.
He chases after her in everyway possible and eventually she realizes ...she wants to give him another chance but this time they take it slow.